let me be..

Monday, March 31, 2008

Tired...

I just finished praticing my violin.
violin sucks! ): isnt as easy as it seems.
and Dr wong is so scary!>: (
plus i missed my last violin practice. tell me how screwed i am..

tomorrow's schedule is really tight.
after sch got violin lesson until 5.30,
then eat dinner somewhere with gloria and the music ppl
7.30 got this stupid chamber music concert
(has no idea whats chamber music...= =)
ends at 9 something..
then on friday got another piano concert..
*sigh* i'll seriously need a pillow. xD
i'll be tired till death! > <

today i revealed to another girl that about bz ._.
hope she keeps her promise..
or else...i'm dead. xD
although i think i might (MIGHT) try to confess to him this year?
dunno lah see how first xD
ok mom's nagging. gtg:D

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Sunday, March 30, 2008

29/03/08

realising march is almost over.

I'm thinking this march had been one of the happiest,
one of the saddest month i've gone through
(contradicting myself here)

Blog is where i'm supposed to say something i feel right.
currently i'm feeling very unhappy (:
and very paiseh xD (to chris especially.)
It kindda feel's like my heart's winzipped = =
like the blood goes through alot of pressure to gush out of it.
then there's this little tinsy bit of throb in my heart.
In the other hand, my mind is blank
then i have no idea if i have any homework to hand in tmr
and then in the day i feel so great cuz the sun's really bright nowadays
and i have mood swings cuz it rains alot nowadays...

Then then, i think really hard, why am i feeling this
this damn weird feeling- like i feel very unsure about what i want..
then i'll feel intimidated, then i'll remember this bad bad past
then i have guilt, regret, followed by determination...
then pain, then feel envious, put the blame on my parents
garh someone tell me if i'm becoming emo??
(but i have no intention to commit suicide! seriously!)

People think i'm blur, but to be frank i'm trying to be blur;
or rather blocking out things that i dun wanna listen,
then i forget the things that i wanna forget
and then i remind myself the stitch my mouth
cuz there's too many other ppl's business in my brain
(as you know, my brain capacity is very little)
so i'll go delete some that i wont be able to say
(or rather i'm prohibited from doing so)

I'm like most myself when i'm with wenli
because wenli can laugh it off when i tell her something
then there's this comfortable feeling cuz she's like my little sister
this innocent kid here dunno whats going on around her - -
then i'll go on envying her...
cuz she had no worries. actually, she has nothing to worry about.

ok i shall learn from chris and dun worry be happy :D
so unsemi to be this emo right? xD

EVERYONE LETS BE HAPPAYE! :D
dun worry be happy!! ><

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Saturday, March 29, 2008

Vivo

"My life would me damn sad without you."

Today we went to redo the terrarium in the sch.
we had to dig the ground to get the earthworms
and chris brought slugs o.o lol
the earthworms chris brought were like as long as 20cm (no kidding!)
then i had to lift it with chopstick and
aunty adeline said it looked like noodles. lol

anyway, the terrarium part is boring..
afterwards, me and wenli went to vivo to eat lunch!
ended up eating cheesecake and muffins in starbucks.
*take note: wenli looooves starbuck's cheesecake

lol then we went to zara and tried the clothes! ><
(gahh i love TRF<3 )
nothing much with trying out clothes, budden i have pictures!

wenli(left): olive blouse with white skinny
semi(right): grey t with black shorts

hehehh say cheese!><

OK THATS IT
buh-bye:D

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Art club excursion

Today was a fun day :D

on top of all, my physics CA is an A!!!! ><
arh that means atleast i wont have to retake the module
even if i fail the test xD

The school ended at 1.15, and the art club excursion was at 5.
So me and wenli decided to slack in the sch for freakin 4h.
Thanks to wenli's laptop, we played stepmania for an hour (:
And i totally died when i played sexy back in x8!! LOL
we were like making alot of noise in the library,
then we got bored of stepmania.. so we went to play netball.

At the netball court, we were playing with huishi and michelle..
then so funny I was trying to make michelle dunk the ball into the net
then she really went 'aaaaaaahhhhhh...slam dunk! ><'
then we were like laughing laughing xD
she's so tall lah ):

Anyways, when we were spending time like that,
it was already 5.15! keke xD *fast forwaeded*
so we took the bus and went to the..the....
dunnowhere near raffles city = = hehhehh

We went to eat dinner at plaza singapura with
Sab, Esther, Huishi, Sharmaine, Shermaine, Darren, Yuxiang and Kaijie(!!)
then gossip gossip gossip
then i saw someone REALLY familiar.... called
CHARMAINE LIEW! >< gosh she got like prettier...
and she became like lesbian since she went to austrailia..
LOL and huishi was trying soooo hard to find out
who was Tomyam and Char Quey Tiao xD
(good luck huishi, btw char quey tiao is damn sweet can xD)

Anyway, i found out who esther and shermaine likes.LOL
and its like a damn lol ppl. lololol
i still CANT believe esther likes him! gahh
the show was quite..boring but creative and disgusting..

The title itself was "Publition is prostitution" (or sth liddat)
and then there was like this part saying
"I spread ur naked legs and drank from your slit"
kindda thing = = which according to sab is damn sick
(and i still kindda dun get it except the naked legs part)
So after the show sab went to ask mr yang what it was supposed to mean,
then mr yang went "why? you wanna spread my naked legs ah?"
LOL

ok fingers hurt.
blog later xD

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Phy & Bio exam tmr

GOOD LUCK PPL FOR EXAM TMR! ><

argh xD today mugged bio & physics until 9.30 with ziyi (:
so damn damn damn damn tired now /:
hehehh but quite happy cuz i got the damn menstural cycle thing!
(all thanks to bryan lee. lol)

today was very very pissed with this two ppl.
first was a girl, and then she went to like say "they're like that = ="
when we were playing basketball today
cuz the ball kindda went out then wenli hit it back
but they say its wenli out so i said no its she out.
what kindda crappy thing is that!! ):
and somemore she said it in like, chinese so that i wont understand
budden u see, i happen to understand such simple chinese such as
'ta men si zhi yang de'
= = then me and wenli very very very pissed with them
no sportsmanship /: ta men si hen hen hen hen bu hao = =
baha xD but we still owned them in the match.
ahh that felt good. xD

then the other one is a guy
me and ziyi was mugging at discussion room
then he came in and sat at our table with his friend.
like when there was a huge table empty just beside us = =
I wont say who this guy is but i'll just tell u he has the biggest nose hole i've ever seen.
i think can fit 50 cent coin each lah - -
anyway, he went to put the aircon which happened to be above my head
to SIXTEEN DEGREES = =
he wants to freeze me up or what! >: (
so i went to the aircon controller to put it back to 22 degrees.
then he went to put it back to 16
so i went there to put it to 25 degrees.
then he went to put it back AGAIN to 16!
so I, went to put it to 32 degrees :D:D:D
(I pwn can xD)lololol

but that was not it.
he went to say something about me being korean without plastic surgery
like kindda loud that i could hear it.
and as everyone knows, i happen to be a korean, and was the only korean in the discussion room.
its like = = fine if i'm ugly atleast dun say that infront of my face right!
and it kindda happens that he's FUGLY

god, if he look like brad pitt and he says that
i could completely understand, but hey, PLS LOOK AT THE MIRROR DAMMIT.= =
*sigh* this feels so much better xD
blog is a nice place to relieve my stress :D
ok quite a long post today.
shall sleep now. all the best for physics tmr!><

Saturday, March 22, 2008

stressed out

gahh it just feels like there's a stone pressing my heart

maybe its the stress...= = gosh

i'm having lots of problems nowadays.

friend problems, academic problems, family problems

and some other stupid problems...): I shall just talk about the sadder one

friend problem,

as every 203 girls know..the bio thing..

i keep thinking the underlying problem is still unseen,

and they just dont get that. i dun understand why.

the innocent ppl gets hurt, and the ones just blaming it on the other party.

grow up, for chrissake! Open ur eyes!

dun u realise the ppl that smile at u,

it may seem warm, yes, but its ice cold inside.

throw away ur ego and stop that denial.

Its not them. Its you dammit.